Trying to move past this pain. It hurts to know that off one action, there are so many reactions. You try to move forward, but you end up being knocked down. You try to be stable, but the instability of your mind takes you to another place. The anger that rises every time you realize that things are a reflection of past actions and situations. Although you can move forward, there are constant reminders of past hurts and trauma.
"I feel like I am losing my mind. I want to jump off this balcony and land on the wire fence. I feel so trapped in this cycle. I WANT OUT! How can one person do so much detriment that it cause so much hell to get my life back. I didn't ask for this craziness. I am a responsible, intelligent, outgoing, ambitious, and loving individual. Why can't I seem to get my mind back? I can't talk about things and nobody will understand? Everyone expects me to have my life together by now, yet, they have never been in my shoes. They don't even know what it's like to be taken advantage of sexually or manipulated and treated like property. They don't know what it's like to only get money or things if they have sex with this person. They don't know what it's like to say NO and the person takes it anyway. They don't know what it's like to have sex with anybody else to erase the memory of this individual. THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW BAD THIS HURTS ON THE INSIDE TO CONSTANTLY DEAL WITH THIS PRIVATELY, BUT STILL MOVING FORWARD OUTWARDLY. I'M TIRED!!!!!"
- Anonymous
What can you really say to this person????????? How can you help????????? What if their life depends on your response????? What would YOU do if you were them?????
