Invisible Me

 
Female, 29 "We're in the same room, have the same blood, share the same name but yet we don't communicate. You come by but I don't exist. Watching you from my peripheral, as you ignore who you see, but nothing changes. 

As tears roll down, remembering you holding me in your arms, wiping my tears, long conversations, rides to the park, family vacations, first conversation of sex, conversing on future goals, etc. All I want is a hello, a hug, a conversation. The tears keep falling, as my throat begins to lump up. I'm trying to hold back the tears so you won't see me cry. Its hurting my heart and insides so bad as you are within arm reach. A feeling of abandonment, unwanting, rejection, worthlessness, hurt, and sadness. Do I just say, forget it? Do I continue to deal with this hurt? Do I let this pain cause me to not love others?"


 What can you say to this? The only thing that you can do is HOPE that the situation will change. There is no easy answer and every situation is different. The first thing is to LOVE yourself! If you don't love yourself, no one else will show you how to love you. It first starts with YOU. Tell yourself, YOU ARE WANTED, YOU ARE LOVED, YOU ARE NOT INVISIBLE, YOU ARE IMPORTANT, YOUR LIFE MATTERS. As you build yourself up, when you are faced with the same or similar situation it won't effect your emotional state.